You are cute, and everyone loves you. You are a best friend that no one takes the chance of losing. You never hurt feelings and seldom have your own feelings hurt. Life is a breeze. You are witty, and calm most of the time. Just keep clear of backstabbers, and you are worry free.
i'm a little bit of a crazy..i'm a little bit of a fool.. ok i admit i'm crazy when it comes to love...but then who isn't ?? the feeling of being loved is such a wonderful feeling that no matter how hurt you are you still manage to be happy.. and you still do love that person who caused you pain.. hmmm.. life.. cannot survive it without love..love is simply around.. love is not a feeling, its a decision we make.. wel, i'm talking about love and crzy because that is what i am rughtnow.. crazy in love.. i had talked to my ex just this morning.. and when we talked, it was as if nothin has happened before.. we were just laughing the whole time..and eventhough things from the past had once opened up again..it didn't bother me a little.. i was plain.. natural.. what i'm trying to say here is that i was kinda surprised with myself like why i didn't feel any anger with my ex anymore when i got to talk to him after everything had happened. i guess because of the time or space that we had i somehow manage to move on.. eventhou it was only a month of space..but then that one month.. i had work..i had met a lot of people.. i had vacation..i had time wit my family and friends.. and maybe because i was so busy that time..it made me not think of what had happened between me and my ex.. and somehow that lessened the burden i was carrying. .finally, awhile ago..i realize what went wrong in my relationship.. its just a simple misunderstanding and pride.. pride because my ex didn't give me the chance to explain myself.. pride because when my ex was about to fix things between us..i was the one to refuse.. so i guess both of us are wrong.. both of us didn't gave way.. wel, now that we are okay i can say that ..i might give our relationship a second chance..everybody deserve a second chance and i don't want to experience that one day i'll be asking myself " what could have happened if.. i gave him a second chance" i guess there's no turning back this time.. i had to do what i feel is right..eventhou i don't think its right.. hmm.. i just wish that my bestfriend will understand me.. because i know that she's against my ex and she wants me to move on because she was there when i was in pain..she was there to witness how miserable i was way back then.. then again, i love my bestfriend so much and i'd really explain everything to her..and this time i won't let my ex hurt me again just like what he did to me.. i will love him..and i'll give him a second chance and doing that i'm just giving him a right to hurt me as well..love and pain is always together..thats inevitable..but i also believe that i'm strong enough to handle our relationship this second time around..
last saturday, i texted a friend of my ex.wel, another friend of his this time..wel, he's a common friend..i just thought i'd say hello and catch up with things..because the other night he texted me a quote..which goes like this."im alon & i cnt help bt thnk of u,i 1dr f ur fyn,wel,myb i jz mis u..bt stl i 1dr y is it dt its u i alwys tnk of? is it stil misn u,or falln for u?" wel, at first i didn't take notice to his quote because i just merely thought that he just forwarded me that message. then about 12 midnight..i called his cell..just a ring..thats it. then he called..i answered him and he was outside..i guess that was in a bar near his place. then he asked me to go there..i took that as a joke..then.. i told him that i have something to tell him..it was about their other friend..who told me that he like me..i was just gonna inform him about it..then after awhile..like 2 am..he texted me telling me that he's home..so i called him up..then i told him about the guy...who cofessed that he liked me..wel, it was kinda a big issue because that guy is a friend of my ex.. then his initial reaction was.. " ..what if i'll be the one to tell you that??" i was like :shock: i mean ..what do you mean by that?? then he told me that he's the kind of person who text his friends and means what he texts.. so i was like? "so you mean to say that the message you texted me was..?? true?? then he didn't answer..he just merely told me..that i should find another guy..and move on..find a low profile guy like him..then it striked me?? what on earth is he trying to say here?? he wouldn't explain..then he told me that i shouldn't worry about the girl who testified for my ex..the girl who i was jealous about..because that girl ..is not that welcome in my ex's house..because my ex's mom doesn't like her that much..then he also told me that i, in the other hand..is so liked by my mom's ex.. so he told me not to worry too much about that girl.. hmm.. i do miss hanging out with my ex's family for they i really feel welcome when i'm there..and they're very warm to me.. :( how i really wish things would be in its proper places..i'm actually planning on to meet my ex..maybe one of these days..for us to maybe have a closure..or we never know what could happen.. i keep my fingers crossed.. :?:
last night a friend of my ex..texted me..he confessed that he liked me..i was in total shock..he even told me that he wasn't close with my ex and there are some things that he didn't like with my ex.. ok i met him when my ex introduced me to his circle of friends..and yeah he talks to me like everytime we meet..and he was always making fun..i mean he always jokes around..so there i am.. not havin a single clue that hey..this friend of ur ex really likes u..when he confessed his feelings i was thinking whether i should tell it to my ex also but then again..reality strikes..me and my ex are not in good terms..for i haven't talked to him yet..and there i was trapped in a situation..gahd..this friend of my ex really texts me often..and he does text me sweet nothins' but it never occured to my mind that he meant something else.. he's like .."oh sweetness..i miss you..i hope i cud see you before i leave..i really want to get to know you better .." wel, i must admit that somehow his texts brought a smile top my face..wel, honestly..because i thought he symphatizes me..because you know..after a month of not talkin with my guy..ex now.. i saw at his account in myspace that he's busy with another girl rightnow..damn how i hate the feeling that am i just that easy to forget?? wel,i'm not really sure if my ex is really into this gurl..but then i've read the girls message to him ..and it was kinda sweet..i dunno..but i think that they do like each other..guys suck bigtime ..i swear.. and so going back to my story, this friend of my ex...was like tellin me that i deserve to be loved..and he is one of the chosen few who could love the female raise divinely.. and he even told me that i am special...hmm?? but then again are special people suppose to be dumped?? duh? that sucks!! wel..i'm getting out of hand here..pardon me for such mess up..wel..ok back to that friend i was talkin about...he told me that he's too old for playin around and wud want to get married soo...wel, he said 'nuf.. in the end i was able to convince him that friendship is all i could offer..and nothing more.. :(
hmm i started my day pretty bad.. coz i'm late for work..hahaha feeling i have a real work...wel, ok training.awhile ago on my way to the office..something terrible happened..one of the strap of my sandals loose..aghh..i didn't know what to do..so i just bought a new pair..hmm talk about my savings...its gone..oh..so ..gone..hahaha getting crazy i guess.then i realize that i'll be late for work that's why i texted my boss and made some excuse..wheeeww..that was totally close..thank gahd!! he texted back..ok..oh my another day!!! i'm here again infront of the pc..doin some stuff..huh!! stuff alright..wel, ok i'm just surfin the net..
m here in front of the pc typing my thoughts..for god knows how bored i am that me and my friends are doin nothin.. its our third day actually and we are assigned to the research department but soon we'll be doing encoding..and i can't wait to try that out...agghhh..i just realize that bein infront of the computer for 9 straight hours is straining!!! eye straining!!! hmmm..and also i didn't had much sleep last night because someone had bothered me like 1 in the morning. Ok, not actually bothered but then again, he woke me up.. wel, its really nice to hear from him like i haven't heard from him in a month now..so its pretty ok i guess.. that moment when i heard my phone beep..i felt cold.. wel, it wasn't really that cold in our room but i felt my body turning really cold..i felt sick ..scared.. sad.. mixed emotions..i can't figure out why but then maybe because that someone who texted me has some unfinished business with me..i looked at the screen of my phone nervously..wonderin who it was..then i saw it..it was that same no. who kept on callin me so early in the morning ..it was that same no. who didn't answer my calls..it was that no... and i knew who it was..for i have seen him posted his no. in one of the bulletin boards..hmm.. deep inside i knew it was him..the same guy who hurted me...the same guy whom i loved..it was him alright..and that night..he gave me the shiver i never felt before..i was scared as hell for when i was texting him memory of us came in mind..the pain i felt intensified..how could he hurt me that way!! aghh!! i was so mad at him before and now that he came back i was out rage!! i didn't know what to do. i held on my blanket tighter than ever .. i felt adrenalin rush.. my whole body was shaking .. i cannot explain the feeling.. i was as if sleeping beside a dead body..i cannot remember well enough what we talked about..but i knew that instant, that i wasn't ready to face him once again. he beg to see me again..but he didn't apologize for hurting me .. he kept on saying he missed me.. and i just can't tell him that i miss him too..in my mind it wasn't right..i felt miserable..i just couldn't tell him..but then i felt good in the end knowing that somehow he felt bad because he didn't get straight answers from me or what he was expecting for me to say.. he said he miss me? hmm.. for the first time, i doubted him.. i didn't believe that he did.. he beg to see me..but i honestly told him that i was not ready to see him again..i felt good that i told him that..it came from the bottom of my heart..i was still in pain..and it didn't subside a little bit..even after he texted me..
:( its hot today.. sobra.. i mean the weather and here's something else that made my mood bad..i went to school to pass our report because our teacher told us that she'd be there at 12-130..well, it turned out that she didn't even go to school.. i really hate her for being like that. the sched was like changed so many times.. and yet she didn't even dare to tell us that like its just one text away.."hei guys i won't be able to make it.." arghhh!! i really hate her.. :twisted:
my friend surprised me with a mail.. attach with it are our pictures. i can't explain why but when i read her letter tears kept falling on my cheeks.. i was really touch with what she said.. it gave me a realization that i am so damn lucky to have her as my bstfriend.. wel, i just wnna share to the world that i'm so damn lucky. so for those of you who have bestfriends..treasure them.. they're worth more than anything in this world..
I've run from these feelings for so long Telling my heart I didn't mean it Pretending that I was better off alone But I know that it's just a lie So afraid of taking a chance again So afraid of what I'd feel inside
But I need to be next to you I need to share every breath with you I need to know I can see you smiling each morning Look into your eyes each night For the rest of my life
Here with you, Near with you Oh I I need to be next to you
Right here with you is right where I belong I'd lose my mind if I could see you Without you there is nothing in this life That would make life worth living for I can't bear the thought of you not there I can't fight what I feel anymore
'Cause I need to be next to you I need to share every breath with you I need to know I can see you smiling each morning Look into your eyes each night For the rest of my life
Here with you, Near with you Oh I I need to be next to you
I need to have your heart next to mine For all times Hold you for all my life I need to be next to you
I need to be next to you Need to be need to be next to you Share every breath with you I need to feel you in my arms babe In my arms, babe I need to be next to you
"I guarantee there'll be tough times. I guarantee there'll be one day when one or both of us would want to get out. But I also guarantee that if I do not ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life 'coz I know in my heart, you're the only one."
Everybody was sighing as we watched Julia Roberts say these lines to Richard Gere in an unromantic setting, the balcony of a building in bustling New York City in the movie Runaway Bride. A few scenes before that, it was Richard who said the same lines to Julia, likewise in an unromantic scenario, as they were talking about how people propose marriage.
True enough, when we were teenagers it was a question which we loved to answer in slumbooks. It remains a topic that creates giggles and shrieks whenever friends talk about it. But does one really know what love is?
We often mistake it for a crush, an infatuation or sometimes, even for the sheer joy in companionship. Sometimes, we think it's a feeling that we have when our hearts continue throbbing hard when we see that special person. Or when our knees start to shake and begin to weaken.
But can anyone really define love? I don't think so, not even the ones who think they have felt it, or those who are feeling it, or those who hope they will feel it. Not even my philosophy teacher.
Because love is not something that you define... it's a decision.
When you feel that you love one person, how can you tell that he or she won't feel the same way for the next person who comes along? Love is not a feeling, it's a decision. 'Coz, when it's a feeling, it is something that floats in the air, something you cannot touch or dare to comprehend.
Love, when it's a decision, makes it solid, makes it a commitment, makes it more lasting and more real. You can feel that you can be in love 20 million times in a day, but when you decide to be in love, you can only decide to be in love with one person once in your lifetime. You commit and you hold on to that decision.
And when you turn your back on that decision, it means you were never in love in the first place.
Love should never fade. Because when it does, it means it's just an emotion. Love will never fade because a decision, once done, is something you stand up for and fight for... no matter what.
What does "I love you" means? Some people find it easy to say the words but what really matter is being ready to stand up for it when you say those words. Are you ready to face all the consequences after saying those magical words?
If you can say "I love you" long after all the tough times, all the good times and after all the words that come hurting you, then the meaning of those words become real.
Of course, I still believe in those words, but I myself am afraid to say them. I know there will come a time when I won't be afraid of those words coming out of my mouth. When I will be strong enough to fight for love again. And I can say the words "no matter what."
Saying "I love you" is a major decision in one's life.
Those words should be sacred, should be kept in your heart until you are ready to commit, to fight for that feeling and to stand by those words.
Is love a product of destiny? No, I believe there's no such thing as destiny. Thus, if love is a product of destiny, then you choose to love, you decide to love. Your destiny is the path that you choose to take.
"I guarantee that there will be tough times." Going back to the movie line that made everyone sigh, yes, it is a decision to commit, it is a decision to love. And when you decide to love, you should realize that there will be tough times and there will come a time when you would want to get out. And when you realize that love comes with all things, good or bad, then you know what love really is.
But there is love...
Everyone waits for love to come into his life. You do not even have to know the meaning of love. Because even without someone to love, there is a love truly waiting for you. A love greater than anything that one wants to feel, greater than what one hopes to happen.
Lack of love should not create feeling of emptiness inside you because there is always this someone who will fill it up for you. Just look up... Ü
"I LOVE YOU BECAUSE YOU SAW ME WHEN I WAS INVISIBLE!"
Many of you may not have heard of the incident that happened to a friend of my son last week at about 6:30 pm right in-front of the thickly-populated area of BPI-Katipunan, near Shoppersville. She parked her car right in front of BPI to make a withdrawal and to do some grocery.
As she was getting into her car after doing her chores, a man suddenly appeared beside her and tried to bully her into moving to the passenger seat. When she pressed her car horn to call attention, he pushed her in the car ad pinned her down with his elbow on her neck. It was a good thing that she had the presence of mind to continue to struggle and press on her car horn to catch attention (even if she had to use her foot to do this).
Her assailant even tried to make people believe that it was a domestic matter by telling the crowd not to get involved as it was a "private matter". But with the onlookers multiplying by the second, her assailant finally gave up and ran. That was when she stood up and shouted for help. Thank God the guy got caught and is now under police custody.
Last saturday, during the inquest, she told me that what gave her the guts to fight her assailant was the article "THROUGH A RAPIST'S EYES" forwarded to our e-groups about a week prior to her attack. I am re-forwarding the article (you can find it at the bottom of this (e-mail) for everyone's benefit.
Please tell your friends, family, and loved-ones about this. It works.
May I just add that to a certain extent, we have to get ourselves involved if we see violence being committed on anyone like calling on a security guard or a police officer even if it appears to be a domestic matter. It seems that a lot of attackers use that tactic to get away with violence. Not many people know how to take care of themselves when faced with such a situation. Everyone, please be very, very careful.
THOUGHT THIS WAS GOOD INFO TO PASS ALONG...
========================= ==== FYI: THROUGH A RAPIST'S EYES
A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:
1. The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun, braid or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed. They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets.
2. The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who's clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around to cut clothing.
3. They also look for women on their cell phone, searching through their purse or doing other activities while walking because they are off guard and can be easily overpowered.
4. The number one place women are abducted from/attacked at is grocery store parking lots.
5. Number two is office parking lots/garages.
6. Number three is public restrooms.
7. The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to a second location where they don't have to worry about getting caught.
8. If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn't worth it because it will be time-consuming.
9. These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas, or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.
10. Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you're not worth it.
========================= ========== POINTS THAT WE SHOULD REMEMBER:
1. If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question, like what time is it, or make general small talk: I can't believe it is so cold out here, we're in for a bad winter. Now that you've seen their faces and could identify them in a line-up, you lose appeal as a target.
2. If someone is coming toward you, hold out your hands in front of you and yell "Stop!" or "Stay back!" Most of the rapists this man talked to said they'd leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be afraid to fight back. Again, they are looking for an EASY target.
3. If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes) yelling, "I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY" and holding it out will be a deterrent.
4. If someone grabs you, you can't beat them with strength but you can do it by outsmarting them. If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm between the elbow and armpit or in the upper inner thigh HARD. One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands the guy needed stitches. Try inching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it; it really hurts.
5. After the initial hit, always go for the groin. I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy's parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you'll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause him a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble, and he's out of there.
6. When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible. The instructor did it to me without using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.
7. Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don't dismiss it, go with your instincts. You may feel a little silly at the time, but you'd feel much worse if the guy really was trouble.
FINALLY, PLEASE REMEMBER THESE AS WELL...
I know you are smart enough to know these pointers but there will be some, where you will go, "hmm I must remember that." After reading, forward it to someone you care about, never hurts to be careful in this crazy world we live in.
1. Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do!
2. Learned this from a tourist guide to New Orleans: if a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM. Toss it away from you... chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you and he will go for the wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!
3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car: Kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver won't see you but everybody else will. This has saved lives.
4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping, eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc. DON'T DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side, put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU GET INTO YOUR CAR, LOCK THE DOORS AND LEAVE.
5. A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot, or parking garage:
a. Be aware: look around you, look into your car, at the passenger side floor, and in the back seat.
b. If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.
c. Look at the car parked on the driver's side of your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)
6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot).
7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times; And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN!
8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP IT! It may get you raped, or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked "for help" into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.
I'd like you to forward this to all the women you know. It may save a life. A candle is not dimmed by lighting another candle. I was going to send this to the ladies only, but guys, if you love your mothers, wives, sisters, daughters, etc., you may want to pass it onto them, as well.
Send this to any woman you know that may need to be reminded that the world we live in has a lot of crazies in it and it's better safe than sorry.
just awhile ago, it rained really heavy.. its a good thing i got home early.. wel, because i had a class awhile ago and we watched this movie "Balzac and the little chinese steamstress" it was fun actually... :P
What is: 1. More powerful than God. 2. More evil than the Devil. 3. The rich needs it. 4. The poor has it. 5. If you eat it, you will die. A. Nothing Nothing is more powerful than God, nothing more evil than the Devil, the rich needs nothing, the poor has nothing, if you eat nothing, you will die.
